"I Want Dad..."

Another holiday without Chris and Audrey did not take it so well towards the end. We were very busy this weekend and the Easter bunny brought Audrey a bike. I felt like I should not have been the one teaching her how to ride her new bike. Her dad should have. It made me so sad to try and teach her how to do the peddles when I know Chris would have loved to do that with her. He even said later that he could not believe that he was not home with her when she learned to ride a bike. Obviously it will be awhile before the training wheels come off but I know that he wanted to be here for this today. He has missed so much in the last few years I know that it is killing him to be away while Audrey gets older. At one point Audrey said, "My Dad is going to be so proud of me!" She is doing much better lately with her emotions but she definitely is still having adjustment issues. While driving home from Easter festivities tonight she began to cry. When I asked her what was wrong she responded with, "I want Dad..." this went on for awhile and then I turned on the camera on my phone. No visual here but you can hear the pain in her voice. Granted, she was very busy today with no nap and it was getting late but sometimes she really breaks our hearts. The sacrifices military kids make is tremendous and they are such troopers!