17 Weeks Down!

Welcome May!! We are 17 weeks into this deployment!! I can remember posting about 4 week down and here we are 4 months since Chris left. Before we know it he will be home :) Week 17 was one of emotions and stress. After the marathon the weekend before I had no time for a day to regroup and dove right back into Monday morning head first full of exhaustion and the feelings of being completely overwhelmed. With finals coming up as well as my work schedule I felt like I could not keep my head above water. After a full week and a Saturday class, by Sunday afternoon I was to my breaking point. I am not sure what a nervous breakdown feels like but I am pretty sure I may have had one. It was bound to happen. My mom said if I was still having rational thoughts than I was not having a nervous breakdown but it sure felt like one. Maybe it was a nervous meltdown. But after a nice little meltdown and after talking to Chris and and finally getting some sleep on Sunday I felt better by Monday morning (thank God!)

One of the biggest stresses in my life is keeping up with the house work. It seems like such a trivial thing but anytime I have "down" time at home I felt like I needed to be working on school work or playing with Audrey... housework, it could wait. Or could it? I got so far behind on laundry, picking up the toys, dishes that I was completely overwhelmed and it was sending me into full blown panic mode (and part of the reason for my nervous meltdown) So Monday while Audrey and I were at school my mom came over on a mission to get my house in order. What?? Whose mother comes over and cleans their adult child's house?? Well I am not to proud to accept help when I need it. She came over and did the laundry, ran the sweeper, got my life organized at home. It seriously took such a weight off of my shoulders. I cannot explain how much that helped me!! She is the best!!

Chris is in the process of traveling to his new base. I have been able to talk to him most days and that helps get me through my days. His new address is available and this is where he will be until September when he will head home.

Another month is over! 4 months down and 5 to go... we are almost half way there! May is such a busy month and looking at the schedule we have something fun going on every weekend and hopefully will make this month be fastest yet. This weekend is my birthday and I wish Chris could be home but I will be celebrating with Audrey and the girls! It should be a good weekend! Next week, I have tickets to the Eric Church concert and the following weekend our mini vacation is here! Girls weekend at a cabin in Hocking Hills! I need this! It makes me so sad that Audrey is not a little baby anymore but it is so fun that she is old enough to hang with the girls. So we will be spend the weekend hiking, playing outside, doing fun girls stuff and just relaxing with Alyssa and Katie. We are beyond excited :) Then the following weekend is Memorial Day weekend where we are doing a 9 mile "Walk with a Soldier" Memorial walk in Perrysburg. Anyone interested in doing this please be in touch with me it is May 26th. Then we will quickly head into June and summertime!

Time is going by very quickly here and even though I've had the biggest meltdown yet, I feel much better now. So as we dive head first into May we will be two very busy Miller girls but I would not have it any other way! We are getting there :)