Dandelions

While playing outside today Audrey and I came across one of those white dandelions... you know the ones that spread all the other seeds. We always used to blow them all over the yard when we were kids 1. to make my mom mad because that meant more of those yellow dandelions all over the yard but 2. because that meant we could make a wish. Tonight this was Audrey's wish as she picked up the dandelion: "I wish for Dad to come home from the Army" as she blew the white pieces of the dandelion into the wind. What??!!  Oh my God why must she do this to me... makes my heart sink. It takes a fun night of playing outside into emotional overload for me. Audrey on the other hand blew the dandelion and continued playing, she doesn't understand everything completely. I had a rough morning, emotionally and mentally. I had a complete meltdown in my car outside of work. I don't want to do this anymore. But I do not have a choice. Another day over is another day closer to him coming home.