Monday, February 6, 2012

Not as romantic as it sounds...


While wasting time on Pinterest today a friend repined this little saying above for me. I love it, every sentence of it but there is one sentence that stands out that I must elaborate on. The..." not as romantic as it sounds..." part. Chris was an active duty Marine when I met him, I knew full well what I was getting myself into when we began dating (I come from a long line of military family). Our entire marriage and relationship has been shaped by the military but I would not change one bit of it! We have went months without seeing each other whether he was across the country training or deployed across the world. I remember many 15 hour car rides to North Carolina while we were dating and living some of our marriage "long distance". And it is defiantly not as romantic as it sounds... actually it blows! The distance blows and it never ever gets easier. The lack of communication,  the holidays, birthdays, anniversaries spent alone, and just the daily things that we must do alone. It all blows. Of course each time he comes home after being away for a long time I get butterflies in my stomach but he also gives me butterflies while he is home for long periods of time too. When Chris was getting ready to come home for Christmas from training someone told me, "It must be so wonderful, it is like you get to fall in love all over again." Are you serious lady?! No I do not "fall in love again" I never fall out of love in the first place. This is not an easy life. I would give anything to have my soldier home all the time, I would give anything to not have to say the countless goodbyes, and the countless tears. But what I wouldn't change is us. This is our life, our story, and I wouldn't change a chapter. This deployment like the others is just another chapter in our life. We fight just like every other married couple, we get on each others nerves, but we also are perfect for each other. So no, being married to a military man is not as romantic as it sounds... it sucks actually. But I would not change it. I am so proud of him. This is our life :)

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