Weekends Are Definatly the Hardest :(

While sometimes we are moving at a million miles a minute during the week it is not that same come the weekends. It is so wonderful to be home with Audrey most weekends but it definatly makes it the hardest part of deployments. Weekends when Chris is home were normally spent lounging on the couch, playing at the park or the zoo, out to dinners, shopping, movies, sometimes drinking beer but basically just family time. During the week we are still so busy that weekends were our time together as a family. Like most families the weekends were our time to relax and spend time together. With Chris gone Audrey and I still relax but that is the problem it gives me so much more time to think and much more time to miss him. Sunday nights would be spent watching The Walking Dead and relaxing in preparation for another busy week. Now I still do that but alone here while he goes out on missions or stands duty in a country many miles from home. His days are my nights and my days are his nights and most days I get by with a quick I love you via online message or a short conversation on Facbook chat. I do not like living on these terms and thank goodness they are only temperary. Most people look forward to the weekends but anymore I absolutely dread them. I love spending them with Audrey but I dread being alone. Some weekends the only adult interaction I get is saying goodmorning to the cashier at Meijers especially when the weather is crappy and we are stuck inside. Don't get me wrong I would rather be home with Audrey than at class or work but I just miss the weekends we have when Chris is home. Although I am so excited for summer because it will be closer to his homecoming, I dread the fact that we will not spend it like our normal summers...camping, grilling out, spending afternoons at the beach, or laying the blanket out in yard and looking at stars with Audrey. When Audrey and I seen Disney on Ice back in the fall when Chris was in Mississippi training I was so upset he was not there with us. Holding back the tears as the music began so Audrey would not see me upset. I knew if he were home he would have been with us. It is so hard sometimes doing things just Audrey and I when normally the 3 of us would do them together. Whether it is a walk outside, a trip to the mall or a weekend lunch date at Cinco De Mayo. The everyday life things are becoming easier but thinking of going to summer concerts, trips and family parties without Chris seems nearly impossible. I cannot imagine his weekends though, I am sure all the days just run together there with no real break. I complain about spending my weekends alone but he would probably give anything for a weekend alone or away from where he is now. Spending endless days in the cold and wet weather while Audrey and I are snuggled up on the couch.
Just doesn't see fair.

 We are 7 weeks through this... that means there have only been 7 weekends that have passed since Chris has deployed. We have countless left.

I guess everyone is entiled to a bad night :/

Here is everyones warning for this video!! I love Faith Hill's version of Come Home but stumbled upon this one while looking to upload it.